Sunday, December 2, 2012

Surrendering to What We Don't Understand


A colleague of mine almost missed a deadline which would have impacted my work and its execution.

Stressed, but they didn’t and everything was actually fine.

The flight I was on experienced turbulence while climbing into the atmosphere at a level I hadn’t experienced in years. I gasped. My heart leapt from my chest and into my throat as I looked at the people sitting near me and we all said, “Are you OK?” 

Shaken, but I was alive and the turbulence was gone, and soon we were laughing. 

After waiting more than an hour for a rental car, I hit the road, and a car I passed it was going the other direction on the freeway caught on fire.

Stirred, but it wasn’t my car and it was going the other direction. The person in that car was also alright, albeit without a car, but alive.


My cell phone was at 15% battery as I drove and I received text messages I couldn’t reply to and worried, for a moment, about not being able to answer.

Sad, but settled knowing that everything was fine and the delay of answering wouldn’t have a longterm negative impact. 

I wandered through a grocery store for 45 minutes carrying enough for a shopping cart in my arms until I asked an employee to get me a basket. When he brought it to me, I dumped everything in and then asked where the travel size toiletries were. I proceeded to then walk through the entire grocery store again putting everything else away.

Setback and delayed, but I was still awake and got what I came for. 

Then, I walked into a hotel room where I saw a friend I hadn’t seen in a few months and I proceeded to talk at him for about fifteen minutes before asking where I could charge my cell phone. Instead of waiting for an answer, I bursted, “It’s OK, I’ll use the kitchen.” Long pause. It’s a hotel room, remember? There is no kitchen.

Scatterbrained, but mostly tired and in the company of someone who had already seen me at my worst (and this was not it).

The next day, I backed my rental car into a lamp sitting on a 15 inch tall brick wall, nearly tearing the bumper off, and then I slammed my arm in a door, and narrowly escaped getting caught in a DUI checkpoint (good thing I hadn’t been drinking)!

Surrendered

Everywhere I looked this weekend you would think all I saw was the negative. 

But that’s simply not true. I actually only saw the silver lining, and the in-between of all of those moments were moments that I will carry with me at least through the entire next year. The above and the in-between moments were all opportunities to hope, to be thankful, to pray, to teach, to accept responsibility, to move on, and to praise God for an answered prayer. 

I borrowed the sentiments of my last post and shared them with someone new. I said, “This is my philosophy: Expect something wonderful (don’t worry about what it is or who it involves and it will happen!”

Two minutes later, I walked into a room and met someone who I could talk to and felt connected with unlike I have with most people in my life. I may have left on a journey stressed, but I came back completely surrendered.


Acts 1:7-8 (NIV) 
“He said to them: ‘It’s not for you to know the times
or dates the Father has set by His own authority.
But you will receive power when the
Holy Spirit comes on you.’”

2 Corinthians 12:7 (NIV)
“To keep me from becoming conceited because
of these surpassingly great revelations,
there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger
of Satan, to torment me.”

John 13:7 (NIV)
Jesus replied, ‘You do not realize now what I
am doing, but later you’ll understand.’”

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