Sunday, February 15, 2015

Letting Go of Selfish Frustration

I got busy. I never thought I would become so busy, so tired, so fatigued and distracted to stop writing on this blog. Writing, for me, is like breathing, or medicine, or some sort of necessity. Somehow, I found temporary fulfillment in Facebook and Twitter posts. When, at the end of the day, God calls me to put more on a page than 140 characters. I forgive myself though, because we all get busy. If my goal is for my posts to help and encourage others, then shouldn't I allow myself to do that however it makes sense at the time? Then, that's what I did. 

This topic is about reacting instead of responding, it's about feeling things in the moment and letting the fear control our response. It's important that we all understand the necessary step of kicking fear to the curb, owning up to our own responsibility and stop blaming the rest of the world for the difficulties we are in. 

Grace will help you move forward, and me too. 

Originally Drafted June 2, 2014

I feel guilty in the instant I realize it’s happened. I reacted. Something someone said, did, or my circumstance in the moment triggers a reaction and before I know it, I’m in a tug of war with the words coming out of my mouth. 
I really let work get to me today, and in the process I forgot about using “I” statements and threw around the word “you” a little too much. 

“You talk so fast, I can’t process what you’re saying!”
“Maybe you can delegate more?”
“I know you have a lot on your plate, but…”

I know I’m not alone. It happens to us in our relationships with our spouses, our children, and with even mere strangers. I like to call it selfish frustration. We turn the annoyances of our situation on everyone else, because in that one moment we think, “How could it possibly be because of me?!”

Grace is a word I throw around a lot on this blog and in everyday life. Really, I should throw it outwards and to people a little more often. It’s easier said than done, I know. 

Even though I recognized my statements were not helping my situation, I didn’t immediately apologize. Instead, I seek forgiveness from God and ask Him to guide me through my next encounters. Dear God, please help me to respond with calm when I run into difficult situations. Give me a second to breathe and think about what I’m saying. Amen.

It’s just a simple prayer, but it’s one I hope to tuck into the recesses of my brain to be able to pull out at any point. All it requires is about 10 seconds of breathing! 

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